Friday, February 13, 2015

In Loving Memory of Mamaw

Life does not always go according to planned, I thought I would have a great Birthday celebrating with my friends. The weekend before, unexpectedly my Mamaw took a turn for the worse. We all sorta knew it was coming with her but all I wanted to do was shout not now. I prayed that we could make it in time so my Mom could be with her should she pass. Once we got there I knew that their was not much chance & that she would soon join my Grandpa in Heaven.
The next few days progressed quickly, & she entered heavens gates Feb. 3, 2015 just a day before I would celebrate my 23rd Birthday. I was very thankful we had just had a nice visit the weekend before she took her worse turn. But still being one of her namesakes & having a close connection with her saying see ya later til we meet again was the toughest thing I have ever done. Most of us kids in my family hardly remember the last time a close family member pass as we were so little. I felt horrible, how could I celebrate my Birthday when I just lost someone I love dearly? 
My Birthday was okay despite the heartache we all were feeling but it all quickly went as a blur.

Yesterday 4 years ago my Mamaw was a huge part of why I won this camera that helped some orphans. (similar photo, not exactly mine) At Christmas & During my Birthday she would always send a check for myself & one for Reece's Rainbow. Because of her generosity this has been a blessing to my sister & I.

Mamaw, you gave out of love for your granddaughter but you have given me more love than I can ever hope to have.
My mamaw had a heart of Gold, always giving & supporting her families passions. Mine just so happens to be advocating for special needs orphans. She would always ask me what latest thing I was fundraising for/doing. She had been so excited for me to go to Russia 2 yrs ago & I so hope I can still go someday. I truly can't count the times or how much she has helped orphans. 

As hard as this past week has been loosing her, I did not get the chance to really help the family I had been planning to share on my Birthday. I know my Grandma would want me to continue advocating for orphans & so I will continue.
The day of my grandmas funeral I felt an extra ache in my heart when I got a message saying sweet Sasha lost her family.
And then another punch yesterday that Brandi lost her family. I did not know if I could take much more bad news. Her special needs were not originally what was said. A new picture, but a sad one compared to that smiley face girl I first fell in love with.
But then happy news, Valerie had found her family!
Still praying the same will happen for Sasha & Brandi as well as Cutie Clover.
Right after she passed I asked any of my friends to donate to the Wetherington family in her loving memory. They are still short thousands of dollars & one of the children they are adopting has an untreated heart condition. 
 In honor of my grandma do you have $5 to spare, a moment to pray, or time to click that fb share button? If your on fb go check out this auction I'm doing for the Wetherington family,

Thank you for your love, prayers, & support during this time. Helping orphans right now is keeping me at ease & I would love to see more grants growing, kids finding families, & activity on the auction so will you help please?

Thursday, January 29, 2015

A Birthday Wish

They say money can't buy happiness which is true, but sometimes it can bring it to a child with no one to love them. 
The past 4-5 years I have realized even more how less is more. I appreciate thoughtfulness that goes into purchasing that Christmas gift or that Birthday present. I'm not saying I'm against giving or receiving gifts, this is just my point of view I wish to share. 
I have learned sometimes the best gift in life is not wrapped with a fancy bow but is instead the people who surround you with love. Those who overwhelmed you on your 21st Birthday eating Ice Cream & other yummy food showing you love like no other.
It's sitting on a stairway bawling your eyes out reading birthday cards with donation after donation in them knowing God provided big time & realizing how awesome your friends are. Lastly it's following God & saying yes even if it's scary, even if it's tough, even if you think it's Impossible, & even if everyone you know thinks you have gone nuts. I'm learning that love takes sacrifices & it means so much to me. So I'm going out on a limb to ask one question, What would you do to save an orphan?

You might be like I do at times thinking why bother?
Why should I care?
How can I make a difference? All it took was a share of a local fundraiser & then watching videos/seeing pictures that had my stomach in knots to break my heart to shreds.
It was this precious girl whose adoption fundraiser opened my heart.
And from there, it just could not stop me from doing whatever it took to help. I'm going to turn 23 in just 6 days & every year I have made a Birthday wish. Since I found my heart for orphans I have tried to do something special/make a special wish on my Birthday cause to me my Birthday is not about me but what I can do for the least of these. I say this all the time it's not about me but God above is why I do this. For my 19th it was all about one special boy who at the time was still waiting for his family to cross that ocean for him & who shared my Birthday.
You can read about that here,

During my 20th, I was in the middle of running a Giveaway to help a few orphans but still wanted to make a Birthday wish.

And of course my 21st was the one to remember,

My 22nd was a little bit different in regards to helping orphans I was visiting my friends in CA & really could not do as much as I would have liked. 
So what is my wish for my 23rd Birthday? Part of that already has come true with this girl finding her forever family.
Next to that my wish is for others to see what they can do to help orphans. It could be donating to  helping adoptive families bring home their kids like these two I'm helping to fundraise for. You can go make a donation to either family here & here

It could be a simple share on Facebook of a child like Clover that needs a family,
It can be a donation of an item or making something like this one that will be featured in the auction I'm doing,
Truly the possibilities are endless of ways you can help support orphans & adoptive families! All I want for my Birthday is to see others be known & be loved. So what are you going to do to help the least of these?

Sasha found her family!

A sweet little face I signed up to be her warrior,
And the day, a week after I heard someone was going to add this sweet girl to their family I finally saw yet another of my angel tree kids appear on My Family Found me Page.
It has been hard seeing now only 3 of my angel tree kids find families since I started advocating back in 2010 but I'm so thrilled for sweet Sasha & I am continuing to pray her home.
Thank you all for helping Sweet Sasha & Praying for her! Please keep praying her home!

Saturday, January 10, 2015

New Hope, New Year-Recap of Angel Tree 2014

Every year Angel Tree comes around, I panic. I almost did not sign up to be a warrior last year & I doubted yet again this year.
But then I saw her, & knew I had to take that giant leap once again.
We had a plan for a fundraiser this time. Plans failed & I was seriously trying not to have a major panic attack. I felt like why did I sign up yet again? I have prayed for her since I signed up & yet her goal was still so very far away.
Then I came to a realization I needed to take a deep breath, do what I could do to share her face & fundraise, & leave it all up to God. Regardless of if she made her angel tree goal of $1,000 or not her story needed to be shared.
So I did just that sharing for two whole months, I put a few items in a online auction which ended up raising alot more than I thought for stuff sitting around in my house, & I did a mini craft fair.
Was it easy & were their times I just wanted to give up? Of course their always is but this little girl kept pushing me to fight.
All along the way since mid angel tree, I have been at peace knowing I have tried my hardest & given everything I could possibly give for her. If I had all the funds in the world to donate I would but since I did not I did what I could do putting my trust that God would provide the funds. 
Up til the last day when she was still about halfway there I thought their is no possible way for her to make it. No surprise big matching grant for the kids on Angel Tree to help her reach her goal. I was disappointed but I was going to be okay with her not reaching her goal. Happily an unexpected donation came in that I "won" & a few others soon followed getting her to about $300 left to raise in mere hours to go. Our New Years Eve Party was happening online but I had left my computer to eat dinner & then visit with family. I was still unsure if she would reach her goal & I kept comparing to years past of my other kids reaching their goals sooner. When I got back on later, a awesome surprise greeted me with several Facebook tags notifying me of what was going on.
She had REACHED HER GOAL WITH STILL HOURS TO SPARE!! I truly felt like I could cry (I would have if I had been in my room), between how she made it thanks to some sweet ladies sharing/donating to her grant & that it had happened once again when I least expected it to. It made me a very happy girl to start the New Year off with her reaching her goal! I want to thank all my friends & family for your support & to all who donated to Sasha during Angel Tree.
BUT IT'S A NEW YEAR & that means New Hope for this girl to find a family in 2015! So please stay with me on this crazy journey & continue to pray for Sasha to find a family. #newyearnewhope Help me find a family for Sasha!

Monday, December 29, 2014

A Boy named Nikolajs

I know I usually post about Sasha but today I'm sharing this boys face.
Nikolajs is an older boy with Down Syndrome, his chances of being adopted in his own country are slim.
He deserves to be loved like any other child.
He is still far from his Angel Tree goal but I sure hope he will get there. Angel tree ends in 2 days!
If you have a few $ to spare click his link above to donate. 

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Halfway there!

The final countdown is on, just 5 days left in the Angel Tree campaign! 5 days & $487.71 to go! It's been much slower this year then years past for my angel tree child reaching their goal but I trust she will make it. I was very excited to see her grant jump by almost $150 last night. 
I wish I had all the funds in the world to give to this sweet girl, if I could be her mom I would but since I can't I send sweet prayers & share her photo hoping someone will find it in their heart to call her daughter. 
Her beautiful ornament has been admired everytime I walk in my room. 
To me, everytime I think of the potential she has, what she could be doing in a family. I think of how blessed I am to have my beautiful sister.
Yes, my sister has that extra chromosome but she is a person first of all. Sasha deserves Love like Pink Princess & to be the daughter she was meant to be.
Not only is Angel Tree a chance to help raise these kids grants but it's main focus is to raise awareness. 
I shared most of these on Facebook but today I share them here to share the reality of what Love can do for a child & that FAMILY is better than even the "best" orphanage. 

And of course I will never forget my first Angel Tree boy that I met this past summer.
Love wins & this girl is gonna push til she has nothing left to give, when Sasha is in her new family. I might not have any fancy prizes to do a Giveaway, no extra american girl doll to sell, but I do have love & that's more than enough. This is what I wrote yesterday on my fb & that was before the donation.
It's been a nice quiet Christmas, but for me their will be no Quiet til after New Years Eve cause Sasha still has not reached her angel tree goal & I'm gonna try my best to shout for her til she reaches that goal. Two years ago at this point I got an early Christmas miracle of my other angel tree girl reaching her goal before Christmas & though that has not happened for Sasha I'm trusting she will reach her goal by the end of Angel Tree. I have one donation present from my Mom & I'm gonna add my spare change to that. I wish I had all the funds needed for her to reach her goal and/or be completely funded for her adoption but I don't, so I pray, donate what I can, & trust God will provide. I know I have "begged", sent out my plea on fb almost every single day since November 1st but this year I'm yet again reminded how precious my family is to me & I WANT To share that gift for another child. If I was old enough to adopt/other circumstances I would but til that day when I can call a child son or daughter I do what I can do cause GOD WANTS ME TO. It might only be a share one day or $5 donation but I know every little bit helps & it makes a difference to this one. Today, all I ask is that you say prayer for Sasha & all the orphans & share her sweet face.
$634.41 looks overwhelming, far from the $1,000 & to some might seem Impossible to reach but I know with God anything is possible!

Trusting God for the Impossible to be possible! While your at it could you pray for this little cutie to find a family too?
I have fallen in love with precious Clover & gah I so badly wish I could be her mama too.

Lord, Please bring these girls families in this coming year? Amen.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Faith, Hope, & Sweet girl named Sasha!

Lately my thoughts have been just easier, somewhat faster to process, whatever you want to call it to just post to my Facebook page. Thing is I tend to forget that their are certain friends who are not on fb land & their are those who have yet to discover the plight of these kids. I know I probably have lost my readers of this blog & if you still read thank you for still reading my somewhat absent blog. It takes lots of energy & sometimes my thoughts don't quite come words like I wish they would. My girls grant has grown this week & this makes me a very happy warrior! 
All this girl wants is a family to call her own. 
It seems this time of year gets me into a mushball of tears. Every time I'm listening to Klove online a song that relates to Sasha & the other orphans comes on right as I'm sharing a post or doing something orphan related. December is always a hard time remembering two girls I love who are stuck in another country & spending another Christmas without families. Every year their stockings still hang with Hope that someday they will find a home.
Most of my decorations are taken down eventually but these stockings remain all year round. I still have faith & hope they will come home to families whether that's in their country or ours.
I have taken many leaps of faith & Hope in my advocating in the past & I still plan to trust God whatever the outcome. My words may not come easily but this Christmas I have faith Sasha will reach her goal. 
It might not be wrapped in a bow under the tree, but is a gift of love! Give her that Love!
Even if your not meant to be her family, share her face & story as you just never know who might be her family! Or if you can go donate to her grant. Most importantly PRAY! This girl, has prayed for you each & every night even if I don't think I have the energy left to do so. I blow kisses to my girls stockings & whisper I love yous to them even if they never know it then I have started the same routine with this picture I placed on cardboard hanging on my bulletin board.
Sasha, to be honest I was afraid like each year since that dreadful adoption ban to allow my heart to open to another for fear that something else would happen. A certain little boy found a warrior so what was I to do? I could have just said no altogether to you or to the Boy I was a warrior to last year but I did not. When I picked 3 girls for my picks I knew without a doubt the criteria of each girl I had chosen. My heart melted for each of them but none of them could truly relate to how I would feel starting with a girl about the age of my girls when I advocated for them. As each day has past since signing up to be your warrior I have fallen more in love with you. You have made this Angel Tree one to remember, you have helped me love again like never before, you have taught me to take leaps of faith once again, & lastly you have helped somewhat heal more broken pieces of my heart. I might still ache with every breath that my girls did not find families, the hurt will still be their at times, & though you will never replace that special spot/them I Love you dear Sasha & I'm ready to find a family for you!