Sunday, April 20, 2014

Why I'm proud of my brother Matthew

Want To know what makes this guy so special?
Cause, he is my brother. I'm proud of the way he has worked hard his 2nd year in college.
I love his tender heart for loving God above all else & his sweet nature but funny spirit to spread Christ's Love all over the world. I'm proud of how he has stepped out & said Yes, to what God has called him to do. Last year, despite the cost & despite finishing his 1st year in college he said yes to go to serve in Costa Rica. God provided all the funds plus some to go just barely in the nick of time.
And Yes, this crazy guy is my Brother! The One who would yet again answer Yes, to Gods calling for him except this time to Ecuador.
When you say yes, to God you take a huge leap of faith that he will provide the funds needed for whatever he is calling you to do. He is taking this huge leap yet again trusting God will provide the funds to go yet again. For you see I'm a proud big sister who watched her brother come home from his trip last year & I enjoyed seeing how God worked & changed his life on that trip. It's not always easy waiting on God but you trust & know he will provide the way if it's his plan for you. I know from experience, I'm still waiting for his Yes for my life but right now while I wait I would go to the moon & back for my brother (or any of my siblings for that matter!) to help him fulfill Gods yes for his life.
Is it going to be easy? No of course not but I trust Gods got a plan & he will provide just like last year. I know I mostly write about orphans but this is a personal matter I feel I need to write about. He is leaving the end of May & still needs about $3,000. Please be praying for God to provide the needed funds for him to go & that he will help Matt show people God's incredible love for them on this trip. Want to know how you can help?
If you wish to learn more about Matthew's trip & to donate to help "Mission Matt to Ecuador" go to his page
Have you heard of Scentsy? Scentsy Warmers use a low-watt bulb to slowly melt specially formulated wax. In my personal opinion they are much safer than candles & matches. Why waste your money buying more than one scented candle when you can just get it all in one! With Scentsy you can mix scents & have plenty of options to choose from. Here's my scentsy warmer I bought awhile back. I personally have only gotten the Lilac scent from Scentsy but I love the days my rooms smell not that great I can just turn on my warmer without worrying about flames or fires. 
Anyway, not long ago God lead me to a kind stranger who offered to do a fundraiser for my Brother. Out of the kindness of her heart she is offering 20% of sales to go to Matthew. I encourage you even if you have never heard of Scentsy to check it out! Thus far, we have not had much luck with this but I'm trying to spread the word cause I want this to be a success! Please help me spread the word too!!! To order go to & PLEASE BE SURE TO SELECT MATTHEW HARDWICK AS THE PARTY AT THE TOP FOR THE 20% TO GO TO HIM!!! OH AND CHECK OUT THE MOTHERS DAY DEAL!! 
Stay tune, we also will be hosting an awesome "moms day" Giveaway on here next week to help Matt even more! We will feature many prizes including a Moms day package of babysitting, photography, & house cleaned all in one and other prizes like gift cards, baked goods, My Thirty One bags, & MUCH MORE!! YOU DO NOT WANT TO MISS THIS!!! Please be praying for this to go well in addition to our Scentsy fundraiser & be sure to spread the word for this fundraiser once we start it!
Matt, again I'm so very proud to be your big sister & of all that you do. I love you to the Moon & back!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Gods Amazing ways & to Never Give Up!

As I write this with tears still in my eyes, I know I wrote about this some in my previous post but today I want to share a message with you all. 
See this little boy here? His name is Ian.
He has a family doing everything they possibly can to cross the ocean for him. They have met him on their 1st trip to his country & are just waiting for a court date before they cross the Ocean to bring him home. Meet his family who adores him to pieces & can't wait for him to come home! They blog here
So what's this have to do with God's amazing ways? Not too long ago I was unsure of what to do in my advocating. I was still struggling of getting back into it & the devil using fear of my heart breaking all over again after the Russia adoption ban. While I watched from the background God was using the hardwork this mom whom I have never met to break my heart for what breaks his heart. I started chatting with this mom after purchasing this shirt to help benefit their adoption.
And I don't know why but God prompted me to signup to become their family warrior. Meanwhile He was planning to use his Glory for Good. He was working in the hearts of an anonymous friend to say yes to his calling by helping this family bring home this precious boy across the ocean even though they never had met this family just like me they knew they could not turn away. This anonymous friend has left me at a loss for words to describe what has happened today & though I can only share so much I want to thank this friend again. 

Thing is their have been countless times I have wanted to give up cause I think no one cares, hears, or sees what I have been posting. I know I'm not alone either, many advocates & adoptive families have said this over & over again. But let me tell you something YOU JUST NEVER KNOW HOW A FACEBOOK POST, SHARE, BLOGPOST, AUCTION, ETC can TOUCH someones heart & how God might be working on them right now! SO TODAY I'M HERE TO SHARE MY TESTIMONY TO NEVER GIVE UP!!!
These past few weeks I have seen amazing ways God works in peoples hearts & I am still praying this is only the beginning of this beautiful story that I can't even share entirely on here.
Right now I'm a bit occupied with my Brothers fundraising for his mission trip which I will be posting about very soon but I want to share the Kirk family still is in need of quite a bit before they can qualify as fully funded! They are waiting on some stuff before they can get their court date so Please just put their family in your prayers. I don't have much to offer but I still want to share their need so if you even just have $5 to spare or if you can uplift them in prayer, or just sharing their need every little bit helps & you just never know whose heart might be moved.
Again, if you feel moved to donate to their adoption please do so here
& if you want to leave a message of encouragement for their family feel free to do so in the comments! Cause IT MATTERS TO THIS ONE!!!

Sunday, April 6, 2014

When you think no one Cares

Yes, it's been awhile. I know this blog is probably not read very much or at all but I knew it was time for another update. I know I have planned to blog many times but it just has not happened. My blogging just has taken a back slide in my life & just maybe that's okay.
I have so much to say but I can't always grasp & put it into words but I certainly try to. 

Well, I had something I had written but God knew I needed encouragement tonight. You may think why bother blogging when you think no one is listening or even cares but let me tell you never know who might God be speaking to!
God's got his plan for you even if you can't see it. Keep going cause you just might be the person God uses to speak about orphans to! 
As I was writing I went to check on an online auction when I realized a friend of mine had bid on an item. To be honest I have been struggling getting back into advocating/blogging thinking why bother if "no one seemed to care" & because the stuff with the Russia Orphans being stuck my hearts just not in it still. Only God would use this time to knock telling me I need to keep going which is why tears pour out of my eyes again sharing this with you. I can't say how much my heart longs for no orphan crisis but God has put it on my heart for a reason so try to help I must one orphan at a time.
Right now I share this girl who still needs a family,
And the Kirk family who I have become a family warrior for who are adopting a sweet boy named Ian.
It may not always be an easy road, but I will take it any day! Please be praying for them as they raise the remaining funds needed to complete this adoption.
Be encouraged today whether your adopting or advocating you just never know when someone is watching! Keep me in prayer as I continue to find myself back into blogging/advocating. My writing might not be as great as it once was but I will get there & I still have a few posts including some guest ones in mind so stay tune!

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

My heart is not here

My heart is just not here,
Where did it go I wonder?
It went to a country, I am passionate about.
More importantly it's the place where adoptions to the USA are now banned,
It's why it takes every effort not to burst into tears while watching the Olympics in that country wondering why the presidents don't care, 
I just want to punch & yell til my lungs grow hoarse at the P & O men when they show them on tv.
It hurts so much & I'm not even adopting so why do I care? 
Because I have a sister had she been born there she might have been stuck the rest of her days rocking back & forth with nothing to do. Yes, I would take her high off pitched singing anyday. On days when I just want to yell at her for the way she was unkind to me I choose to forgive her & love her regardless.
Sometimes I don't understand why God gave me this passion in particular for orphans in Russia if the doors to that country were going to be shut but I trust he has a plan for me & these orphans even if I don't see it yet.
You may think why should I care? Or you may not even know about the adoption ban or what happens to these kids if not adopted? Kids get transferred from the "baby house" between 4-6 years old to adult mental institutions. Conditions in these orphanages & institutions can be from babies/adults being tied to cribs all day, to sitting in their soiled diapers, to rocking back & forth, to getting beaten & bruised, & many more worse things happen. CHILDREN & ADULTS WITH SPECIAL NEEDS LIVING IN THESE PLACES HAVE AN 80% CHANCE OF DYING ALONE ACCORDING TO STATISTICS. Though some of the orphanages & mental institutions are okay nothing compares to the love a family can bring to a child. I'm tired of sitting around not doing more to help whatever way I can do to help orphans be adopted in Russia, change perspectives of special needs kids to be raised by their biological parents & have the resources to do so, & BRING ABOUT CHANGE!! This hurts so deeply that I'm gonna do something to help! I was going to write an update on my 21 for 21 final tally but that can wait. I had a blogpost in my draft folder that I was going to post about how angel tree ended but that too can wait its turn. RIGHT NOW DURING THE OLYMPICS I'M POSTING MY HEART OUT!! I don't care if only one person reads this or a dozen people read this I'm doing what I need to do & saying what's on my mind right now. 
Right now I'm not posting much about normal life or the Olympics, cause I care more about the kids who still wait like Natasha who will be my facebook profile picture during the remainder of the Olympics.
ITS TIME FOR SOME CHANGE! WILL YOU JOIN ME? PRAY LIKE I AM DOING FOR THE ORPHANS, PRESIDENTS O & P, & FOR ME AS I HURT BADLY FOR THESE PRECIOUS LIVES. I was going to go to their country before the ban now I just wait for what God has for me. Russia, still holds my heart & just wish I could have a clear answer what I should do about it. ADVOCATE & PLEASE OH PLEASE SHARE!! SHARE THE STORIES, POST THIS PICTURE ON YOUR FACEBOOK OR INSTAGRAM OR TWITTER OR WHATEVER I DON'T CARE JUST PLEASE HELP!!! I'm tired & worn, & I need some new friends to join I along with the others who have been fighting since the ban happened in December 2012! I know your busy & have a life to live, I'm busy with my life too but I'm taking just a short while to me to write what I'm passionate about. It truly would mean the world to me to have my friends standing with me on my passion & even just take one second to change their profile picture/share about these kids or 10 minutes to pray for these kids. Cause 1 life can make a difference! This is not about me but bringing Glory to the one True King! God tells us to care for the orphans in the bible & that's what I'm gonna do. 

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Never forgotten

This has been sitting in my draft folder for far too long. As the year mark of when the ban happened came up I was so busy with the Holidays & family I did not get a chance to sit down to write what is on my heart. Firstly I want you to watch this video. These are the parents who had met their children & then the ban happened so they had to leave them behind. My heart is truly broken with them that they might never see these babes again. Some of them may get adopted in their own country but chances are slim for those kids who have 

special needs. Next, take a moment to go read the Hat Story
I was so blessed to play a part of this story & help a girl I love dearly. She says it better in her post then I can describe. 
To the girls that hold a piece of my heart, I long for the day when you both can find families who love you endlessly.
I'm greatful that your loved my darling shooting star but it still is nothing compared to the love of a family. I ache with every breath everytime I look at the play house at Sams Club & remember that day I pictured you & your friend, Natasha playing in that house. So, this time when I went past the playhouse I know I needed to take a picture to show everyone a glimpse of what I was visioning inside my head. I managed not to sigh or cry this time but it did make me sad a little to take this photo & realize you might never get to play inside it. Darling girl, if ever your country changes its mind I'm gonna save to get you & your friend a playhouse no matter if I have to save every single penny for awhile. It may not be this same one but I know it's every little girls dream to have a playhouse. 

To my other darling, I long to know if your okay. It breaks my heart everytime I think of you. No updates or photos. I try not to worry but it scares me the not knowing. Know that I love you sweet girl & praying your being loved in some way!
And I can't forget my prayer child Alden,
My sisters "look alike" (picture from when she was much younger on left side)
Finally Precious Carmen,

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Good News!

You may be wondering why I no longer have Joshua's button or donation box on here. It's because thankfully he has A FAMILY! 

As of now, no one has heard from his family so it does not look like I will get to know his new family so as of now I will be focusing efforts on Haisten & any money I have collected from fundraising will go to him. I will update if I get any more information but as of now that's what is happening. If you have donated to Joshua no worries if for some reason his family does not step forward to go through the process for a FSP with Reeces Rainbow donations will go to another child. Thanks for all the support! Now, even though Haisten has no adorable photo to admire let's be sure to get him to his goal of $1,000. 

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Friends Forever & cherished memories

This past year has truly been the hardest with advocating as last year the big gates of a country closed its door to adoption. That country held two precious treasures (among others) that did not have families. 
I don't remember when it was maybe a year or so into advocating for her after she was transferred I discovered only one family had ever adopted from where she was but the director was very welcoming to adoption. I found another family would soon be adopting their soon to be daughter from that same place.
All along, don't tell me why since before I knew I pictured Celine with this girl. Maybe, it was their similar hair, about the same age, or cause they were in the same place. I pictured them together in a play house in sams club running around. The day I realized they were together in the same group made me happy & little did I know the peace of that fact would give to me. 
Little did I know the gift God had given me through this sweet girl after the ban took place. I hurt with her dear mom who truly loves this girl & wants her to be with a family. I was looking forward to getting to meet her & I still hope someday I will. They are friends in their institution & though it's a wonderful place both her mom & I hurt for them both. Now, I know why I visioned them together so long ago. THEY NEEDED EACH OTHER, despite the fact that one is wanted & loved I'm thankful they have each other.

It's been heartbreaking as I go through the many 1st's of what I was doing this time last year. The cherished memories as I watched a miracle unfold to get celine voted onto angel tree, got gifts from friends for her grant, the trials of fundraising during angel tree, then the joy seeing her get to her goal & beyond 13 days into Angel Tree 2012 with the help of amazing warriors, the start of my planning for my 21st Birthday fundraiser & many more. As I look yet another year at the stockings hung with notes of prayer & the many ornaments hung on the tree who are stuck just makes me sick to my stomach & want to burst into tears every time I walk into my room.
I had started little stockings for my girls with notes of prayer in them (that some friends had given me) that I would not take down til they found families. I then ended up moving so I had to pack them but this year I plan to keep them in their spot. I even have had little gifts for them including scrapbooks for their future families. It stings as I now have a corner filled with cherished memories, & I have a few special necklaces that somehow relate to them. One has Cora lynnes picture, another I bought from a fundraiser I did, & the most special one of all is the gift an anonymous friend gave to me which (at least from what I assume) had the charms of both girls birthstones. Every single thing has a memory from one or both girls down to my scentsy which was purchased from the fundraiser I did. I just can't think of the memories all the time or that would bring me down.
We had thought at one point a special needs amendment might happen so since they were still listed at that point I pressed forward on the 21st Birthday plan I started thinking about in October 2012 then started planning that December when the ban took place. This is my LIGHT OUT OF DARKNESS MEMORY is the blessing that took place on & before Feb. 4, 2013
That's truly one 21st Birthday (or any one!) that I will always remember! All I had wanted was to fundraise for two girls & though it turned out differently than planned if it had not been for the love my friends shared to support my passion 1 girl might not be home with her family, & the other 3 with families on their way. 
Even if you don't know it Girls, I love you more than words can ever say!