Friday, April 26, 2013

Never forgotten

How do I start the post I never thought I would have to write? This past week a difficult decision was made, for all the children in Ru***as grants to be moved to other children. It looks very dim of the country opening anytime soon so instead of the funds just sitting their what better joy then to let other orphans in open countries come home. It has been a rough week but despite this difficult time I have felt peace like never before. God has answered many prayers knowing Celine is in a good place is partly due to that peace. I do still worry but I know God is with them.
As hard as it was, they had asked who I wanted Celines & Cora Lynnes grants to go to. For me it was not a hard decision as I had already started advocating for most of these girls. Celine & Cora Lynne, you will be forever in my heart & YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN!!!
So, if you still read my blog you will recognize who I chose. I chose these girls cause they are older, similar diagnosis to the girls/my sister, & several reasons but most importantly they need(ed) families. First Happily one of the girls I chose as found her family! As tough & bittersweet as this is I know in my heart God handpicked her for a reason. Once Berkeley's family is public I hope to share more of that story here & continue to help her family to go get her. Celines grant was evenly split between these 3 girls.
And my precious Cora Lynne, whose grant went to Zinnia.
It is my hope that all the other girls find families soon! Even though Ru***a remains closed at least for the near future I am still praying for Gods plan for all these kids lives. When/if they ever reopen I will fight for the girls again! Just cause I am advocating for these new girls does not mean I will forget them. They are in my prayers always. I loved them like daughters & I still mourn for their lives but I am at peace knowing their is still work to be done! Out of ashes Beauty will rise!!!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Torn in many ways

Sometimes I am just torn for words, what title truly fits what I feel right now? Anxious for any word on discussions between Russia & US Governments regarding adoptions. Excited on many fronts at all these older kids finding families, seeing the JBF funds now reflected in Brandi's (53) grant, & the second sevenly shirt campaign going on this week with Maria being one of the older orphans that benefit but yet I'm still sad & slight jealous I do admit that all these kids who have been strongly advocated for keeping finding families yet Celine has to wait. I have not had much time to blog & I just don't have anything else to say right now not to mention who knows if anyone reads this blog anymore.

Recently, I celebrated a year of God calling me to help Brandi. If you read my posts I had mentioned another girl who was listed before the special needs list came out in another Eastern Europe country that my friend was in love with. Well, I am pleased to say SHE IS ALIVE & HAS BEEN RELISTED as she has reached the age where the list does not affect her! I have chosen yet another to advocate for! :)
Meet Zinnia,
Is she not precious or what? At RISK OF TRANSFER SOON!!! At least while I wait for news I can focus on my "new daughters" but still its hard. No, I am not replacing all my "children" I advocate for in R****a but in the meantime I try the best I can to help children most in need.
Please share these girls so they can find their forever families!
And Maria who benefits from this weeks Sevenly sales!
Be sure if you have not already check out the awesome stuff available this week from sevenly!!! AND DON'T FORGET TO KEEP PRAYING FOR RUSSIA!!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Choosing another

Since I started advocating, God has lead me one way or another to each orphan I have helped.
For Quinton it was the expression in his eyes that wanted me to help & the fact of sharing a Birthday, (He is doing well at Home with his family!)
Celines bright smile took my breath away
For Cora Lynne, she needed a Angel Tree Warrior I saw the same desperation in her eyes like Quinton.
Alden, needed someone to pray for him & I wanted to pray for a boy.
Brandi, came in an unexpected way that could only be explained by God.
Carmen, though I never have fundraised or advocated much for her I wanted to pray for her.
And Lastly precious Heath whose family found him recently. Julia's blogposts added to the fact when I saw a brief period of quietness of advocating for Heath that I just knew I wanted him to be added to benefit from the Lost get found Giveaway. 
This time was different compared to other times. Choosing another to Love & advocate for was not on my radar. I was still heartbroken over the ban in R & barely coming into the light again fundraising for Brandi. I posted on my Facebook, that how do I choose when I feel like I'm betraying or loosing hope on the Girls. I wanted to kick & scream, NO I DON'T WANT TO but yet I knew I wanted to help another who has that extra chromosome like my sister as part of my 21 for 21 project. Before this all happened I was overwhelmed (still am!) how many need help & decided I was not going to choose anymore to help while I focussed on the girls. I knew which category of special need I wanted I just did not know what age. As I scrolled page after page in that category, none really called to me. I was unsure if I was going to be able to find another that was what I was looking for to help or that I would feel the same feeling when I found all the others I have advocated for. But then I saw this Beautiful girls smile & it reminded me of Celine. I could not turn my eyes away from precious Maria so even through my pain I said yes I need to advocate, pray, & fundraise for her.
Though this precious girl was older than Celine & her grant is currently $10 I knew my same mission as I have done with Brandi & Cora Lynne. Little by Little we will get her there!
I think I need some "sunshine" again to brighten & remind me that all orphans need Love. LOOSING HOPE IS FOR QUITERS & I'M NOT GONNA BE ONE!!! ADMIST STRUGGLES BEAUTY WILL RISE!!
Maria, thanks for reminding me about Love & teaching me that I'm just on a different twist of this path God has laid out. 
He knows the plan of all the R orphans & I'm continuing to pray the best for them whatever that may be!