Saturday, December 1, 2012

Overwhelmed

Lately I just have not wanted to write at all to tell you the truth. Why? Cause I am plain ole frustrated at the stupid spam comments I have gotten almost every day this past week. I know people do read & I really don't care if I get one or hundred comments (that would be fun to have sometime hehe) but what matters is these kids. I know people have lives to live & don't comment sometimes for certain reasons, heck I don't comment much either but it would be nice to get the occasional comment other than spam or a troll. Not only is the spam bothering me a tad but frankly I am just overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by personal issues I don't want to discuss cause it just makes me depressed, then don't get me wrong I am thankful for what God did in October for Celine but she is a long way from being fully funded & all my local efforts to help have stunk cause people are doing other things or just not hearing in this bad economy. I feel bad cause I just wish Cora Lynne was on angel tree. 
Very greatful I have a loving & generous Grandma who has given me donations for RR. Seeing $210.50 makes me happy but sad at the same time knowing how much I hate rules & regulations in the state I live in that I can't be doing more for her. I have managed to raise the first $10 through amazon, then two donations from Grandma, & $88 through half of my babysitting funds. The rest I will never know who donated. I just want to go hide in a dark corner like I said I go to from time to time. I keep going for Celine & the other kids out there. Maybe it was too much to think I could manage to raise at least $300 in change for her? I'm disappointed I don't have a fancy something to sell to help her get closer to the $1,000 goal & that I could not do the toy consignment sale cause I did not have enough time to tag & gather items. Not to sound prideful but I even asked instead of presents to donate to Celine as my present. I want to help others & might still have success in the gift wrapping, auction, & other attempts to fundraise for her but still. It's very hard when I have about run out of ideas to do locally, & it's hard for me cause I want to raise it myself but I can't manage to do that. At least it makes my heart happy decorating my tree full of angels. 6 of my angels are still waiting for families & all have new photos this year. Cora Lynne is not on Angel tree this year but I am going to get her  newer photo printed to be put in a photo necklace or ornament. I like to think the angel on top is watching out for these kids.

The other side holds the rest of the RR angels. Makes my heart joyful know the bottom two, Quinton who is home & "Katelyn" has her forever family & should be home soon!
Then as I glance at these two stockings it breaks my heart knowing i have had them up since last christmas & knowing that they will sit up there til Cora Lynne & Celine find their families.
IF I HAVE TO SAY IT A THOUSAND TIMES ALL I REALLY WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS FOR THIS GIRL TO FIND A FAMILY & IF AT ALL POSSIBLE GOD FOR HER TO REACH HER ANGEL TREE GOAL! ALSO PLEASE OPEN NEW HEARTS & TOUCH OTHERS TO DONATE TO HER IF THEY CAN.


5 comments:

Stephanie said...

OK...I see you are linked up with Amazon...will try to order something frim your link!!! and there's a comment!!! No one ever leave any on mine either. I may get 1 or 2. But, I agree, comments are nice every once in a while.

Beth said...

Hang strong and keep advocating. Never underestimate the power of your words and increased exposure. Who knows how many have seen your girls and are considering adoption? While your girls still wait, perhaps you have brought attention to RR which may have found other orphans homes <3 I will continue to pray for and hope that your girls families find them soon! Thanks for all you do!

Jenny P. said...

You are an amazing advocate for your girls !! I don't think I have ever seen anyone else shout as loud as you shout !! I rarely comment on blogs - and get few on my own blog ! I'm sorry you're having a rough time in your personal life - but please know that you are doing a wonderful job for your girls, and it will be well worth it in the end !!!

Patti said...

when Celine gets a family (which WILL happen) it will be because of you, sweet girl. Don't give up !! oxoxox

Jane@flightplatformliving said...

she will have a family so soon i am certain! you are amazing! xxx